I feel...

It's not writer's block. I have many topics I want to write about and at the start of this month I have written many things in my journal (well actually in many places..some notes on my pc, my cell, my cutey notebook, planner, etc. i also have drafts in this blog site) I am not having writer's block. But when I think about posting them here, I stop. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that many things have (drastically) changed this month or the fact that I am now starting to have more confidence and courage. I like one blogsite with the title "It's now or never:... ramblings of a girl who needs to believe in herself" because that is the way I feel. But I still have to really think when (and not if..because I do want to) I want to go public..when I want to share my blog site. Because it is not just my blog site, these are my thoughts. even if i try to censure them and carefully and artistically arrange them, me! myself will be seen through it! and well it scares me. and lately i have realized that some things are just not meant to be said..some things are just fine or even best just felt and not said out loud. and i am an emotional person. i feel. with so much passion at times. and i am a rambler. i talk too much at times, that i punish myself by shutting up and being too quiet naman..hay! i need help!....