Crash!

My harddisk crashed yesterday...our sys ad is still trying to recover my data..but i am not that hopeful..as a lesson learned, i now try to save my thoughts here in my blog account..not necessarily to be posted...pity, i remember having many blog drafts in that harddisk...but i do not seem that affected..as i expected to be...i have actually stopped blogging in my pc and returned to the normal pen and paper journal. anyway most of my thoughts these days are not for the blog world... heheh coz they are either too mushy or plain too personal to post... i have a dedicated fan for my manual journal...and i love him..heheh.. my thoughts feel all-important with him... although his usual reactions are just written in his eyes, expressed in his face ;-) i still appreciate it..since i have learned to become friends with his eyes.. reading his thoughts there...dismissing the 'taray' tone of voice he uses, usually when he is 'naglalambing'...such contradiction...hehehe...like one time we were joking about a testimonial his hs friend wrote him (that he beat a classmate in elem school and that person still has not come out of the hospital..) i told him that i still am not afraid of him... and he said (in his threatening voice and wide eyes glaring at me, while he lovingly hugs me) "kelangan mong matakot?"

=P sweet niya 'no?! (this is not a sarcastic remark, by the way!)